Training Wheels

Wow I can’t believe I will be in Thailand in just a few days. There is just so much I have to get organized before I go. And a lot of thoughts have been running through my head.

In a lot of ways I feel like a little kid who is about to ride a bicycle without training wheels for the first time. It’s like an adrenaline rush of emotions. I’m going somewhere foreign and am on the verge of something big. And I’m leaving everything that I’ve previously relied on (apart from God) behind. I have fears of rejection, stepping outside of my comfort zone, fear of not having the faith to overcome these things and live unrestrained, fear of not being effective for His Kingdom, or not living up to people’s expectations.

But I have God on my side, cheering me on, and that is who my hope is in. If God is for me, then who can be against me? And if God loves me and delights in me just the same if I try and fail miserably, then why should I hold anything back?

Recently I have been holding these verses close to my heart:
"For this is the love of God, that we keep his commandments. And his commandments are not burdensome. For everyone who has been born of God overcomes the world. And this is the victory that has overcome the world—our faith. Who is it that overcomes the world except the one who believes that Jesus is the Son of God?" I John 5:3-5

So yeah, I fears and what if’s staring me down. But when I consider the power of God, there is excitement that I cannot put into words. Kind of like a kid riding a bicycle without training wheels for the first time. Please pray that fear would not hinder me in any way, but rather I would be listening for His voice and trusting in His power, not my logic. I hope this all makes sense.